You must be wondering why am I still up at 2.30am? I was actually6 watching some hongkong drama series with my family, now feeling rather tired cos I also went to gym around 10pm. Haha I am glad I am so determined.
Actually we recieved a very bad news today..that is my "Gu Po" passed away this morning. She is actually my mother's brother's wife's mother. Although it may sound we are v distant, but we are very close with them and Gu Po always make delicious food for us. I know Xiao Jiu Mu must be devastated.. my Mum's eyes and nose has been red since she reached home. I feel very sad about it and it happened too fast ...so sudden. The last time I saw her was on Christmas Day, during my cousin's wedding! She has always been very strong except for high blood pressure. The cause was actually due to Stroke and the doc found a blood clot in her brain. They were able to relieve it after giving her a jab to disperse and circulate the blood, however, it somehow grew back to an even bigger clot. That was the time they had to decide whether to let her undergo surgery or just let her go peacefully. The chances of Surgery was either 1) Confirm Paralyse or 2) Vegetable. Thus, they just wanted her to go peacefully without pain...this is really very very sad...sigh...
Please cherish everyone around you, esp your closed ones..and also, do not worry to much..have to let things go when you need to..put things down when you need to..
Well..actually I wanted to talk about my Appraisal which was held yesterday.
Everyone undergone 1 hour and I had 2 hours! It was damn formal and scary to me. It was the first time for me and I regretted it because I realized I had lots to say after the meeting! My mind always goes blank and my speech was retarded! Arrghh..! I am v v pekcek with myself!!!
I could've defended and stood up for myself soooo many times! Anyway, I think I just have to do my best from now on...it seems like the Boss doesnt trust me enough..well..tat is the main thing that upset me. Well, nvm..
Alright it is really getting v late. Tomorrow gotta go BBDC topup..haiz..no money!!!
Goodnight!
