I guess I have not been blogging for some time and it is always the case when I start a job.
Well..I think all of u might think that I am happily working now and congrats me and everything.
BUT...I think I have decided to quit this job before it is too late.
I am having headaches for days, for more than 4 days if I am not wrong, and it is getting more and more serious each day. I have never had headaches in my whole life to this extent, and I guess I MIGHT have migraine, so I am kinda worried. The pain was such that I could just cry if I do not control myself..and when I walk, I had to focus so much and breathe really hard.
I was so worried and scared becos as I walked to the toilet just now at one fullerton, I had a feeling I might or might not blackout any moment.
I like the ppl and their flexibility, their trust in the staff, their helpfullness and understanding etc. However, what I cannot adjust to is their working envt becos it is almost COMPLETE silence when working and the air seems soooo still. If I exaggerate, u can see the water vapour stopping in mid air and falling down slowly...
I didnt tok almost at all..and not even a sound comes out from my mouth sometimes. When there is a fone call, of course I have to pick up and say something. I have to listen to my songs thru the lappy when I plug my ear phone there..whenever the song stops I cannot stand it!
The aircon was soooo cold that it somehow "freezes" my hands and head. My body is protected cos I wear jacket. I have a total of 4 protections .. i wear a cardigan..leave one cardigan on my lap...one jacket at the back lying on the chair..and shawl around my neck..Do u think it is serious?!?! I even felt like wearing winter caps and ear muffs..and gloves!!
I do not know whether all these resulted from my one week of cough and sore throat but well..I dun think I can tahan for many years.
Another thing is that they are grooming me into a Consultant. I have to do market research..reading of websites of companies, gathering info, organzing info..etc. Understanding and reading up everyday and apart from that, also data entry of resumes into the boring database. All these I find it v v boring..and i am not interested in the industry...
I have to look at the screen and read and read too..I cannot stand it leh..sometimes I feel sooo restless that I wanna leave at 5 plus. hehe but endure..normally ard 5pm i do not have the mood to really work..
In future as a Consultant, I have to get my own clients and meet them to do presentations to clinch deals. Then provide service to them...discuss and tokover coffee or tea...and close deals..hit target get commission.I dun think I am such a person...haiz...
SO I have other plans now..I shall discuss again..cos i dunno why the blog is sooo laggy today...Arrghh!!!Gonna see doc tmr... :(
I Miss u baby!!!
