I'm gonna be dead this time!! It was a grave mistake cos i actually remembered vin's bday wrongly!!!!It should be on the 27th n not the 26th..no wonder he didnt reply me..but late at night he replied and say it wasnt his bday and he was very sad. I know this is really my fault!!!He sure very sad wan..hai thinking of his sad face and imagining him crying really makes me feel sad and think he is very ke lian. I apologised alot of times to him and i am really really really terrible sorry indeed!!!I used to miz up his bday with another friend who's bday is on the 7th Oct..i dunno why i tot it's 26th!!Arrrghhhh....and we have already known each other for more than 2 years and yet i can remember wrongly...I think i am a failure at this as a gf!!! I know we are having probs...and i dun plan to celebrate his bday with him cos i realli dunno how to. So i told him i cant, and i need to study..and let's have a time-off until after the exams cos i dun wanna quarrel and affect our studies right now,esp during the exam period. Anyway, u guys mus be wondering how the hell i rmb wrongly...cos it is actually the FIRST time we are gonna be together on his bday. During the past 2 years of his bday,we were always in the "brkup" period. I know this is ridiculous...dunno abt this relationship la..soooo many setbacks and probs..together so long of course cant bear to end it ma...BUT...haiz..i also dunno how to say..
Sometimes i wonder whether i stil love him or it's becos i am used to his presence that i am still with him and i endure all those unreasonable quarrels and unhappiness jus to not stire up any frustrations and headaches....HELP ME........!!!
Gotta go prepare for the paper at 6pm! *NeRvOuS*!!
P.S: Welcome back Mandy!! Miss u leh...miss ur bloggie...:D
