I went singing today with an an and i didnt do anything about school ..i came home and watched tv for many hours..now so late already..hai..toking to xx
suddenly have some thoughts abt my sec school buddies and friends..F9 and shuhui...
During our conversation, we somehow toked about my past relationships and i must say the most memorable one and marked a very deep impression..and had a great impact in my life and everything,has to be jason and Rs. But all those can only be memories now..and that is a realli sad thing sometimes when u think back..but that's life..i cannot do anything abt it.
Rs has always been my guardian angel in my heart and he is still an angel from my own perspective right now...and i think he will always be one. I knw i have somehow let these two guys down some way or other, and i've hurt them both terribly and i am really guilty of it! Both has given me alot of happiness and security, especially Rs. I'm very grateful to him for being there for me almost like always!..Always there to listen to me..and i liked toking to him, but dunno whether he realli listens haha..!Now i realli miss toking to him...it's a realli good feeling when i am able to sit down and keep toking to him..or thru the fone. Now i have one less listener and it seems like other than him, noone is there to listen to me except for my "DeaD" blog. I know everything wont be the same anymore and maybe we will keep drifting away from each other.But i just hope he will know that he had given me happy moments and really supported me and gave me strengths throughout that time.....
I dunno why i am suddenly writing this...but sometimes it just comes naturally..with tears...
