I've finally endured this LONg and TIRING and BORING day~! The theory pract test today was realli quite tough..although i studied the notes quite well and read it so many times, but the qns aksed didnt seem to relate much to the notes! I wonder how is tmr's prac test gonna be...quite scared too but very lazy and no mood to read thru..hmmm i got back my biostats computer results today..haha got 59/100..hmm i expected quite a lousy grade but nvm la..this is realli a difficult module for me..almost everyone did ard 60 something or 50 something marks. I think i realli have to buck up for the second ICA..hai..next tues is the presentation for mol gene already..kinda scared leh..my part of the powerpoint i haven do yet too and my survey i haven asked finish. I hate presentations!!Arrrhhh....sure cannot speak well..:(
Hmm anyway, i patched back with Alvin last sat..my mum got to tok to him face to face and told him to change his temper and like council us la..say cannot play play ...got probs must solve..if he has any prob he can also mmsg my mum..that day i was quite happy and realli touched that my mum was so concerned and he seemed like he understood too..and he told me he will and mus treasure me like gold..cos he realli never expect another chance given to him.Hmm i didnt dare to tell many of my friends at first ..so afraid they will lecture me or i will have to explain so many things..so tired! But F9 sure unhappy with me wan...haha but the my dearest Didi(xx) say if alvin ever bullies me he will show him colour immediately...realli alot of ppl care for me lor..i am realli happy! Yuan and grevin also support me..but i reali not very very very confident in this relationship lor.Because i realli dunno whether he will change..but nevermind la dun think so much ...ppl needs time to change also ma..change also cannot expect too much..cos i am not perfect too. I just like the feeling with him realli comfortable and happy..provided that he doesnt throw his temper..but these days okie..still smooth..haha although we decide to begin a new relationship althogether, but the feeling is not very sweet lor..I feel as if we are already together for 2 years or so..haha...so that kinda worries me...:) I didnt dare to tell Rs too...he got so many tests these few weeks..didnt wanna bother him ...also afraid he will drift from me..but i also scared i might drift from my friends(that's not wat i want)..:( I think Alvin still kinda possessive lor..but i toked things wit him i can sense that he is trying to change lor..and trying to improve on this new relationship. I told Rs today..thru sms...but i think his response was bad but i expected it..and i didnt dare to let Rc know too..cos he sure lecture me..then say i this i that....!!!
Anyway, today i was abit pissed with alvin la..cos he met me outside my class when i came out immediately from class after the test..then i was still excited over the qns..and discussing with erma ma..then i saw him then like still was toking with erma...then later he say i saw him then like no response..act blur!!OMG...then i think both of us were a bit unhappy with each other already...then he went home first cos i still had another last lecture. During the last lecture, i was thinking about us and i had the feeling of last time when we always quarrelled...and suddenly i was worried about whether are we gonna end like that again?!?!that was realli scary...hai..then he asked me whether i was unhappy..then i say a bit lor..but then he like soooo sensitive..then he say he never la..then we just say dun anyhow angry lor..then everything settled liao..i know it's realli a very very small matter la..so not worth if quarrel. I just wanna let nature take its course..but hor i think these days ppl know i attached le then all drift apart from me le...rather SAD sia! Hai....wonder why or am i the one drifting away from them?Hmmm....realli confused also..:(
Weiqiang also nowadays seldom see him online then when i see him and tok to him also never reply...sure away wan...hmm....hai.....aiyah i wanna save money to buy hp leh...so miserable!!
My hamster dunno feeling better anot..how i hope i can communicate with him!Hai...hmm waner that day came back to stay overnight..then she told us that there's a guy who likes her and treats her very well..haha i am wondering whether there will be any outcome between the 2 of them! Aiyah need to go and bath le..later got american idol and most importantly got Clay Aiken!!haha...i must watch..then tomorrow onli go school for pract test...hai..so boliao~! Later still must complete my biochem datasheet! So hungry...waiting for my mum to come back...hmmm...aiyah..sometimes i realli wonder who is going to be my husband haha...if i can see it in the mirror or something...i will be single forever until i marry haha...!Day dreaming at this time..realli not appropriate.:P
